I am..._______!

I am beautiful. I am smart. I am perfect.
         ...
     Some girls my age forget that they are loved, and that they are important. Girls, you are strong... You are capable... You are amazing!
        Stay Strong!
~izzy:)

Who am I?

I am having trouble finding who I am...
Sporty. Preppy. Trouble. Funky. Hipster. Classic...

            This probably sounds like the universal teenage sob story, But it's no joke. Finding yourself  is incredibly hard to do in high school. Plus, other distractions:
1. BOYS
2. Druggies
3. Alcohol
4. Girl drama
5. Parties
6. Homework/projects
7.Tests
8. New school
9. Older students
10. Gossip
                               High School is an entirely new world... We are now the youngest kids in the school! And Girls, let's face it; OLDER BOYS ARE HOT! It can get really hard to focus on school work!!!  But, whoever I decide to be; I'll own it! You should own it too! Empower yourself! :)
                                 Love always,
                                                Izzy<3

The perfect therapy

Amazingly, i rather enjoyed the ride over with my cousins and brother! we listened to music, and made jokes... Maybe this is what I've been needing... I've come to think that maybe spending time with family will be the right therapy for me. The rest of the vacation was good, at times we were torked, other times we were the picture perfect family. I am so glad I'm home.... I missed my dogs, and my father; as weird as that may sound. :) But, i do believe we should take many more family vacations... This most definatley took my mind off things! :)
             Love Always,
                               Izzy <3

vacation

For the next couple days i will be at my grandparents house, so there probably won't be any new posts. But, keep checking in for unexpected posts! :)
       Love always,
             izzy<3

emotions running wild

Today was regular day... We celebrated my cousin, Julia's birthday. Tomorrow my Brother, Alyssa, Julia, noel and i will be leaving for our grandparents house down in Seattle. our Grandfather wants to take us fishing, which i am not complaining about; it may be just the thing i need to get my head on strait. My brother left this evening to go to a bonfire at a friends house, and this usually wouldn't bother me but he has recently acquired a new girlfriend. she's incredibly boring, and she seems like she has a stick in her ass. The best part of their relationship is knowing it will be over soon... They won't keep in touch when he's away at collage. Everyone around me seems to be happy and yet, i am still  missing something... I have been so unhappy for so long, and all i want is to be really happy; and that's extremely hard to do without my friends. I am having numerous emotions about this coming year. Part of me wants to make the most of next year, but another part of me just wants to feel sorry for my self. Everyone says that feeling sorry for yourself does no good, but as humans with emotions shouldn't we have the right to feel sorry for ourselves for a period of time? 

unexpected meeting

          After seeing Riley for the first time since the middle of February, i had started feeling conflicted about next year... everything will be new, and scary. I miss my friends, I miss Trey, I will be missing my brother. Based by how great my past year was, i will not become fawned of CAV. plus, all of their past students say it's a prison. my family will be missing a person which makes this whole process worse. Tell me, am i becoming the poster child for emotionally damaged kids?  I miss Tristan.  he used to make me feel better about the world... but, for some reason we seem to have grow apart. i need him back in order to keep my sanity. In the beginning of this past year, we were the best of friends; we started fighting and arguing. It was too much to bare. all the same, i love him and i want my best friend back. now the question is will we keep fighting fire with fire, or put down our torches and be the friends we once were.
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